I wish I were a sailor.

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 04:10:32 GMT

Before I leave Bellingham, I want to climb to the top of the Herald Building and take a picture of their neon sign.

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 04:07:42 GMT

sick + paper + finals looming = no good.

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 02:56:18 GMT

I miss my snow. Yesterday was a sledding, snowball fighting awesome adventure fraught with beer, bottle rockets, cocoa and live music.

I made amazing cookies today, but sadly they were consumed in the rain.

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 18:22:06 GMT

hooray for a holiday! I think I would have imploded without this break. This is the first time in weeks were I've had (almost) nothing to do for a whole weekend. It was nice to recharge and relax.

Thanksgiving was awesome. My brother and Adrianne and Tim were over and things felt sufficiently thanksgiving-y. I cooked a relatively good meal, no major disasters, lots of beer was consumed and everyone went to bed stuffed so I'd call it a success. Plus, for the first time ever, I am the proud owner of ALL of the thanksgiving left-overs which there never seem to be enough of. Though I forsee the remaining 15 pounds of turkey becoming more of a curse than a blessing by the end of the week.

The rest of my brother's visit was good too. It was kind of hard finding things to do with him, but thai food, hiking, american gangster and drunk bowling seemed to keep him pretty entertainted. Last night we went out with a bunch of my friends and drank beer, bowled and then went for russian dumpling which, as David declared this morning, are "the best things ever, I don't even feel hungover at all!" I'm a little sad he didn't get to spend more time with my friends since bellingham seems like such a ghost town without them. But overall, I think he had a pretty good time and liked bellingham a lot.

Now, back to real life. Which really isn't such a bad thing right now. Things have been going a lot better for me this week. Once I got over the stress of that fight with Casey and having two tests my week got a whole lot bettter. Tuesday night I finally got to spend time with Csey and I think things are going to be good. I'm really excited for him to come back tonight so I can tell him all about thanksgving and getting a B on my o-chem test!!! I can't believe I got a B, but I am super super excited because that relieves a lot of pressure for the final and I don't feel like a total idiot anymore. But, whoah, finals are in three weeks which is kind of scary but also cool because it means I'm a lot closer to going home and having a long break. In the meantime, I guess I'll have to start studying and write some papers.

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 22:05:49 GMT

so nine weeks without journaling and just under eight weeks since school started... I see a correlation.

so good stuff:
- I applied and got into my schools environmental science program.
- I'm doing well in 2 of my classes.
- The roommate situation is extremely harmonious and involve lots of cookies.
- I've been doing a lot of reading for pleasure.
- David's coming to visit.
- I am going to be cooking thanksgiving dinner and spending turkey day with my brother, Adrianne and Cory. (and anyone else who wants to come!)
- Spending more time than usual in Tacoma and Seattle. Getting out of Bellingham more often seems to make me a little more sane.
- Rilo Kiley, Brother Ali and Cat Power.
- things with Casey were going very well.

bad stuff:
- Things with Casey suddenly not being ok.
- Having so many tests, projects and papers to do that I can't believe I'll ever see the end of it.
- Having really vivid dreams that are not really scary, but really stressful.
- I am not passing organic chemistry right now.
- I have an o-chem and bio midterm on the monday before thanksgiving and an 8 page paper due the wednesday before thanksgiving.

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 04:52:24 GMT

at Tori's birthday party friday night:

Random stranger bro-ish guy: "so are you guys dating or in a relationship or what?"

me: "um...."

casey: "we're in a relationship."

me to casey: "oh cool!"

A Few Minutes later:

casey: "is it cool that I said we're in a relationship?"

me; "yeah, it's a hell of a lot easier to say than 'this really cool guy I was dating till he went to alaska' yes, it's very cool."

Casey: "cool."

Ignoring the parts were I was super awkward and the overuse of the word cool, I'd say that was a pretty cute story. Next time I see that random Bro I must thank him. Also, thus far, being home is awesome!

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 04:25:57 GMT

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Thu, 16 Aug 2007 04:41:39 GMT

my god, I have been enjoying social distortion so much lately. good thingd they're playing seattle in september!!!!!!

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 02:19:15 GMT

So I had a really fun and exciting weekend, but all of the pirate-yelling and staying out late has made my voice start to disappear. I'm kind of enjoying it though because it sounds really cool when I sing.

Moving starts tomorrow, yay. I loathe this crappy apartment more and more every day. At some point in the past week both of my roommates seem to have come to the conclusion that there's no point in cleaning up after themselves or putting anything away anymore, it's gross. I have that sentiment too, but I think I've been pretty courteous by limiting my abominable messes to my room and closet. Also, I think the shower is leaking because there was a sizeable puddle yesterday and the plaster is cracking a bunch more than it was before. all I can do is sigh and hope we get our deposit back.

The only thing I am more excited about in life right now is summer school being done next wednesday. I spent 4 hours working on 4 ridiculous problems last night and still didn't get them done so I had to get up early this morning to finish before class. (and by "ridiculous" I mean unreasonably hard and completely dissimilar to what we've been doing. NO ONE got the same answer on the last problem, not a single person.) I'm still pretty worried about not getting a high enough grade, but at this point I am just so sick and tired of getting up early, studying and homework that it's difficult to care. Still, I know I have to buckle down this week/weekend and study my ass off.

Next Wednesday I will be celebrating!
I don't know how just yet, but I have an inkling it will involve a lot of new clothing since I currently hate everything I own and had a list of things I want/need that's about a mile long:
-new sandals since all of mine are almost worn through
-snseakers that don't smell like dirty feet
-2 new pairs of nice jeans so I don't have to wear the same ones work all the time.
-blouses, again so I don't have to wear the same 3 shirts to work all the time
-Cardigans, again see above
-a black tank top, the one I have now is unraveling
-a zip hoody that actually fits
-a flat iron, I've never actually owned one before, I've just been using other peoples for two years
-sunglasses, mine got really scratched from getting dropped so many times
-bras, the underwires popped out of two this summer
-some sort of speakers for my ipod, just because that would be oh so nice to have
-a haircut

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 05:41:38 GMT

so friday night, driving down to olympia, I'm in my car thinking "god, I hate Everett so much" when, suddenly, an eagle swoops down next to me and lands in the trees between the north and southbound side of I-5. washington is so awesome!!!!

I think the eagle was an omen of sorts because the rest of the weekend was really awesome too. Friday night I drove to Shelton to stay with Leah and was able to get through seattle and tacoma with no hassles and ended up headed west on a 2-lane highway through the peninsula just as the sun was setting, it was gorgeous. I got to Leah kinda late so we just watched the rest of the Mariners game and went to bed. Then saturday, her mom made us an awesome breakfast and then we went to hang out with Caleb at work and watch Indians play softball. (yes "indians", because thats what everybody kept referring to the Native Americans as, apparently you don't have to be p.c. out here...) After the Indian softball extravaganza, I got the grand tour of Shelton which was not too exciting in itself but I had a really good time talking to Leah and getting to know her better. It was the first time I've spent with her without Caleb and it turns out she is even more awesome than I thought. And her parents are hilarious too! Dinner with them and Caleb was a riot (and the food was good too!). Saturday night was pretty uneventful, we watched a movie at Calebs house, but he lives 2 blocks from the Capitol building and it was really impressive to see at night when it was all lit up.

Sunday I left Leah's around 2 and went to Tacoma to see Valerie! It was really exciting to see all of her pictures from her trip to China and hear all of the stories about drinking with communists and lecherous old guys from ethnic minorities. I also got to meet her best friend Tony from Colorado and he was a super nice guy (not to mention cute.) Then we went on a ridiculous trip to Ikea and ended up getting lost in kent/renton but it was a good adventure. Sadly, Winston and Alex were nowhere to be found when I stopped by so, sadly, I had to head back to Bellingham without seeing them. Soon enough though, since I'll be headed back down there in 2 weeks.

It was a great weekend indeed. And to top it off, I talked to Casey for a really long time on Sunday night and I'm starting to get excited for him to come back. It's been nice being single all summer but I think I'm ready to settle down a bit. Not just into a relationship, but into life in general. This summer has been such a whirlwind and the next few weeks will only get busier with school, work, moving and going out of town. I'm really looking forward to the start of September when I'll be settled into my house, finally get to see adrianne again and get to go home and see my family in albuquerque.

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 06:20:52 GMT

dear universe,

can I have tommorow off, please? (but still get paid and get to turn in my homework and make up a calc quiz?)

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 05:40:00 GMT

the weekend and this week so far:

fragrance lake = gorgeous.

saturday night = ended at 5 am.

new track jacket = amazing.

calculus = a bad idea.

adrianne+rachel = old! Happy birthday to them both!!

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 05:54:11 GMT

ah so,
holy crap,
getting shit done for summer school is just not happening.

In other news, I have two very exciting developments to report:

The first is that I am regaining my motivation to do the who online journaling thing. (i think this may be tightly linked to my extreme disinterest in calclus.)

The second, and more pressing matter, is that I've started eating eggs. A lot.I went through a whole dozen in the span of 10 days. This is extremely uncharacteristic of me. I used to really hate eggs. Eventually, I kinda sorta made peace with them in the sense that 4-5 times a year I would eat one in scrambled form. Now, who knows what happened, in the past month I actually WANT to eat eggs. Eggs for lunch, eggs for dinner, eggs for midnight snack!! (never for breakfast though) eggs, eggs, eggs!!! I'm even eating them 2 at a time! my lord, what is the world coming to????

Other things I am enjoying lately:
-sunshine, it's so nice having it back after a week of rain.
-kugs, especially their online playlist archives.
-not freaking out about what I am going to do with my life.
-realizing that next time I talk to my mom and dad I can tell them what I want to do after college.
-running into near strangers at the park and having long conversations with them.
-tall ships in the harbor.
-thinking about the insane chain of events that is starting in 2 weeks. (Olympia, my brother, moving, adrianne and lora, casey, then home then school)
-listening to punk a lot.

Things that are not so hot:
-barely scraping by in calculus.
-not being in albuquerque with adrianne and dani and rachel. it's just the same going home and not seeing them.
-I haven't talked to casey in a week. i don't mind that it's been a week, I'm just really in the mood to talk to him.
-i owe bellingham public library one dollar.

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 05:45:54 GMT

yes, I now have a place to live. I'm moving August 15th a few houses away from where live now (Chestnut) to High Street and I am so excited!!!I'm not living alone as I had planned on, but I couldn't pass down such a good deal. At first I wasn't even considering living there, but the more I thought about it for the rest of the day, the more sense it made:
-It's super cheap ($275 + $50 for utilities!!!!)
-it's close to campus (15 minute walk)
-it has a washer and dryer
-the owner is the landlord
-big yard
-cool dog and even cooler landlord

I'll be living in a house with 2 students and the owner who's only there june-october. My room's still small, but it's got a nice view and the rest of the house is pretty spacious and has a good sized yard. And, the owner, Chuchi, is the crazy cool Argentinian woman who used to be an environmental engineer and has a sweet dog. life is good. except for the calculus, that's not going so well. but as long as I get a C I'll be pleased, plus i am getting really excited about my brother coming, adrianne and lora coming, moving, casey coming back and going back to new mexico

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 08:55:53 GMT

dear drunk kids,

shut the fuck up. and don't steal our parking spots, bitches.

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 04:45:42 GMT

dear boys,

please stop pestering me. I have no interest in you romantically. No, I am not free tommorow and no I am not free the day after that. Oh yeah, midnight on tuesday? nope, not free then either, I'd rather be asleep, alone, so I can wake up feeling rested at 7:30 to go to school. this weekend? fat chance, there's a new Harry Potter book coming out. he's the only man I want to see right now. Think you can seduce me with your cutesie text messages? Think again. I'd rather not have to pay 5 cents for your spineless, passive come-ons. It's a waste of my money and irritates me to no end. I actually scoff and think less of you for it. What about facebook, at least it's free right? Well at least it's free but also sad. He who leaves a voicemail then facebooks a mere hour or two later is a little pathetic, why not at least try to play it cool?

Seriously, all of this male attention is driving me nuts. It's flattering, but the text charges and constant drilling about what I am doing tommorow night and the pathetic devotion to a lost cause is really not doing it for me right now. I was soooo looking forward to being single this summer and disappearing from the radar. I have school early every day, then I have work, then I eat dinner and cool off, then I have homework to do every night and after I finish that, if I don't just read a book and go to bed, the only people I want to see are relaxed people who aren't putting on some show and don't make me completely uncomfortable.

more good news!

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 01:55:36 GMT

My brother's coming to visit and I get to go back to albuquerque for a week in september. radness!

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 06:01:45 GMT

so summer.....

it hot and awesome.

I'm suprised at how hot Bellingham gets actually. Actually I think mostly I am surprised at how hot my apartment gets and somehow mistake this for the outside temperatures which are actually quite bearable. I feel like I've been using the weather pretty well with walks and barbecuing and swimming and sunset watching. and the reading! oohh, how I've missed reading. So far I've gotten through 1 novel, half a short story compilation and about a quarter of a biography, but oh it feels good! and I've got Jitterbug Perfume, the Bill Richardson bio and a shark book to start on soon.

this weekend in particular was quite nice and I spent most of it alone. Friday night I went to Beau and Grahams and saw everybody, but since then I've only spent time with my roommate, her friend and a hundred or so strangers. Saturday morning I got up earlyish (10) and went and looked at apartments. Actualy, really just 3 rooms in rooming houses, but I ended up really liking one which is super close to campus, nice price (utilities included!!!!) and has a little bit of a bayview. I'm also super excited to check out this studio in the York District on tuesday, though it's a bit pricier. Later hat day I saw the new Harry Potter movie and was pretty impressed by it. Though I still think the actress who plays Hermione is kind of annoying because she only has two tones of voice. Then Saturday night I cooked a nice dinner for myself and watched a movie.

Today was equally pleasant. I slept in, then read for a while when I woke up. Then cleaned up and ate some awesome homemade pancakes. Then more reading and I talked to my folks for a while. Then I went and looked at sweet puegot roadbike. I liked it well enough but the brakes were iffy and the front tire needed to be replaced. It was more maintanence than I could handle alone so I had to pass, but later on I called casey and when I mentioned the bike he said he'd gladly build me one at the hub if I paid him in kisses! so that's exciting. I'm thinking about buying a crappy bike in the interrim though. Also, during my conversation with Casey we talked about the idaho thing. He said he didn't mean to freak me out and it wasn't supposed to be a scary, meet the parents thing. I hadn't really thought he meant it that way and I explained that I was just nervous about spending an entire week with him after not seeing him for three months. If I do go though, I'll have to get a fake ID somewhere so I can go out with him and his friends. it would be very fun though, and I think I deserve a bit of a vacation since I'll be working and going to school all summer

Also, I there are three things I am totally in love with right now. 1) the idea of getting my teaching credentials from UNM after I graduate and teaching high school science. 2) the idea of droppping out of school, going to pastry school and becoming a baker. 3) living alone. I have this elaborate vision of decorating how I want, cooking for myself all the time, things being clean, having dinner parties, painting and doing other random art projects, walking aroung in my underwear and just generally having everything go my way. God, I hope I can get a studio!

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 05:56:13 GMT

So my parents visiting has been awesome!! Friday the poked around Friday Harbor while I worked then met me for dinner at the fabulous Bellingham insititution that is Super Teriyaki Happy Hour. Saturday, I had my parents over for dinner. haha, when did I grow up so much?? It was way cool though, we went to the farmers market in the morning for veggies then out on Chuckanut for oysters and crab and my dad got me a grill (yay!!!!!) so we barbecued at my house saturday night. Sunday we had breakfast at Little Cheerful then went up to Vancouver and toured the city and at some ridiculously awesome Chinese food at Sun Sui Wah. Then today we went up to Whistler and saw the sights and took a bunch of pictures of all of the granite cliffs in Squamish, Amazing. But it'll be sad to see 'em go tomorrow, it feels really natural having them in bellingham.

In other news, I'm starting work fulltime tomorrow and am madly curious at to what could possibly take up that many hours in my office. There's not a ton for me to do now, so I wonder what usless things I could possibly be put in charge of for the summer? Also, I need to find a part time job for a few evenings so I can pay for school in the fall. Summer school starts monday, ugh, but it'll get me into Huxley sooner so that's a plus. And, so impressed by my dedication, foresight and academic achievement to date, my parents said they would pay for it, so that's an extra $800 that stays in my pocket.

I'm excited for my first summer in Bellingham and out of my parents house. I have a whole list of things to do like read and get a bike and paint and other generally awesome things. Most of them probably won't happen to the degree that i picture them happening now, but that's ok, it's better than nothing right? Also, I think Bellingham could turn out to be dreadfully boring so maybe that'll be a good motivator. Still, I'll have all of my girlfriends up here all summer so I forsee quite a few drunken nights. I'm really bummed that all my guys are gone though since I've gotten so attached to hiking/barbecuing/lighting fireworks/hunting cougars/pasta dinners/watching cartoons with Zac, Steve, Paul, Caleb and Casey. i'm not sure that Tori, Jessa, Katie and karen are gonna be up for that stuff. Also, so far I miss Casey a lot more than I thought I would. It was weird because on thursday I helped him pack all afternoon and joked about alaska constantly but it still didn't feel like he was leaving. Then when we actually said goodbye, we both just had this weird look like "is this really happening?" and then he was gone. it didn't actually hit me until saturday when I was laying and bed and felt like something was missing.

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 23:55:47 GMT

yay, my parents are coming, my parents are coming!!!

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 23:50:00 GMT

This morning I dreamt that my parents and brother came to visit, but could only stay in town for a few hours. 5 minutes ago, my mom called to say they cancelled their trip to san diego this weekend and were thinking about coming out here instead!!! I am so excited!

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 08:51:51 GMT

so this whole casey going to alaska thing.... not cool. I'm seriously starting to freak out since he's in idaho all weekend so the only time i'll have to spend with him will be during finals week next week. just not fair at all.

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 02:34:07 GMT

p.s.
a note to adrianne:
i think I like the new tiger army and you should get online so I can talk to you. except i think it's like, NO NEVERMIND, it's not early in the morning for you so come talk to me!

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 02:21:39 GMT

first of all. fuck, naps are like crack when. especially when you've been running around crazily, getting up early, going to bed late and being super productive all week. Second, not getting enough sleep is the weirdest high ever. third, time to bitch about finals. I'm actually not that worried about thm since i've been so on top of things for the past two weeks. I turned in extra credit papers in Bio and Anthropology this week so that takes a little bit of the pressure off in those classes. I got a B on my last math test, an A+ on the last quiz and 90/100 homework points so I think I can scrape a C (dare I even hope a B-?) Chemistry's going to be a pain in the ass as usual, but as my professors a crackhead and I'm so fucking happy to be done with this series I really don't care, I just have to get through it. so, notice to finals: "I am so kicking your ass."

That being said, I have had the craziest dreams lately. It seems like most nights and especially during naps that I've been a superactive dreamer. It's been really cool though. I'm remembering a lot of it and casey probably thinks I'm insane becuase everytime we wake up I have a really bizaare story to tell him. for example:

last week, I dreamt I had to go take a test that I hadn't studied for and on my way through campus ran into Zac and Kamryn. This, like in real life, made me like 20 minutes for the test and ended up madly dashing to the library which was suddenly on the wrong end of campus. once I got to the library there were two people ( a guy and a girl) guarding the door only letting in people who had arrived in pairs. "fuck this, I'm running late," I said and charged past them, raced through a maze of hallyways trying to find the right room being chased the whole time, and finally got there and convinced the TA to let me take the test. So, I'm sitting there taking the test thinking the material is really unfamiliar and then I realize "oh yeah, this is a music 104 test, I'm not even in this class" and somehow it turns out that I'm taking the test in someone else's place. as I walk out of the room, my Biology TA Gabe is standing outside holding the door open and holding up a pair of my underwear. For some reason i think this is funny, not creepy and start talking to him. then suddenly, Gabe and I and all of the people that were taking the test are at my house having a party. now Gabe is standing in my closest and holding up a pair of sexy, white lace panties saying "you should get an A for these."

End of dream. so, so strange but really funny, especially since I have a huge crush on gabe becuase he's hot, likes punk, has a ton of tattoos and has the same major as me. the next day I did laundry and casey came by to pick me up so we stop on the way out so I could put my clothes in the dryer. I then see the hot, white panties and am reminded of the dream so I tell him about it. he laughs then asks if my bio TA if hot, I say "yes and he's got a ton of tattoos," to which casey replies "oh, is it gabe? I know him, he's a cool guy, he works for the AS." oops.

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 14:48:37 GMT

holy crap, it's june. finals start in 10 days. lame-o.